why is it when you want me to change
I do it or I’m punished
When I ask YOU to change
you act like it is a punishment
“At least I don’t hit you.”
(Not yet)
What are you saying?
what are you NOT saying?
is that a threat IS THAT A THREAT
I’m not sensitive… maybe I am, but what’s wrong with this?
Why am I always apologizing?
How can I not act DEFENSIVE when you attack me like this?
I just want this specific need met
why won’t you meet my needs why don’t you need me
You never really liked me
I finally realized
“I could work with that.”
meant you were never interested in me or what I had to offer
but YOUR idea of me
I didn’t exist until you brought me into being
into being your mirror
too bad you didn’t like what you saw
when I fought back you lost control
you grabbed me by the ******
I was there, but none of it was my story
I’m writing my own story now
Despite the harm, I learned much from you
(that is not a thank you)
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